hmmm....

dh lme x tulis skung x tawu nk tls apew !!!

pheww !!! :)

hahaha... akhirnye balek gak kte 0rg .... hehehe... tpi 0rg kt umh c0zen(seremban) hehe... es0k k0l 6 baru blk ... pnt 2 ... haha... mse at genting gile panas ... hahah... x sejuk p0wn ... pk sejuk argh sgt hmmm ... hampeh jerk ... first2 aq naik bende ntah .... c0zen aq kte buai tebang 2 hahaaha... ngar0t t0l giler ....
p2 kte0rg naek spacesh0t .... giler best ... haha... first2 tgk die 0rg naek tak0t sehhh ... berderau drh ...
tpi x de argh tak0t sgt ... c0z ble smpai kt t0p 0f the air aq b0le chit chat ngan dax china ue ... die dax laki ...
hahaa... die dri kedah ... sp0rting sehhh .... haha... p2 naek corkscrew ... gile tak0t tpi aq x jerit p0wn naek ue ... c0zen aq at seblah menjerit 2 ... hahaa... tpi syg giler kite0rg x naek superman ... ue p0wn best... tpi kte0rg x de duit ... 0ut 0f cash .... =_= ....


pastue aq dh lpr giler ... aq n c0zen (nina) cri parents kite0rg minx duit ... hahah... p2 die0rg bagy rm10 jerk ...hahah.... p2 c0zen aq sur0 bli hawaian chicken ....hahaha... sedap >_0 .... kite0rg mkn at l0nd0n .... ceh g2 ... pergh  !!! 0rg bakang kte0rg nie gile kec0h ...  dh argh jam ik0t jam jep0n ... 0rg bru k0l 4 die dh k0l 6 ... hahaa... p2 dh kenyang gy pusing ... lpe lak kte0rg gy b0ating ... hehe... pergh !!! bengang giler... awl agy dh bengang ... bru kay0h ue ... p2 b0t ue x nk grk .... dh lah 0rg len tggu ... dax kechik ue p0wn rety.... bengang sehhh .... haha...

then mlm ue ... kte0rg smbung balekkk...  haha... sedihh t0l ... dh arg x dpt naek sungai renjang p2  ... umh ant0 p0wn x dpt ... tpi umh ant0 x kesah sgt c0z ary2 aq nmpk ant0 (adeq) haha.... pas ue dh b0san giler ...
aq sur0 ayh aq beli an tiket mas0k sn0ww0rld ... hahah... sejuk giler ...hahah... pas ue dh abes men sn0w kte 0rg naek b0at ape ntah ... dh argh sl0w ... giler ... hahaha... lpe lak bef0re kite0rg men sn0w kte 0rg naek merry g0 r0und ... hahhaa.... mcm b0d0 jerk naek ue ... dh argh dax kecik jerk keliling .... naek ue agy seram dri c0rkscrew ... hahahah....

pas ue ... es0k nye kte 0rg p0wn balek ... pas ue ... family ajak gy z00 negare ... pergh !!! tnshi0n giler aq n nyna ... dh argh ue tmpt dax kecik .... naseb baek gy kjp jerk ( 3 jam ) hahaha... pas ue ... gy putrajaya ...
heheh... kte 0rg dh lap0 gile tr0s mkn nasi arab ... heheh... marvelous ... pas ue ... kte 0rg r0und 1 putrajaya... then gy alamanda ... x beli pape p0wn ... juz mkn pizza n min0m air jerk ... haha...

then .... balek umh c0zen ... smpai jerk tr0s terkam lapt0p masing2 ... hahaha... ( kt genting x dpt c0z x de wireless ...) misz adeq ssngat ... heheh... 0k ... haha... nak min0m jap (h0tch0c) hehe...

                                                spinner - haha menan first kte0rg men

                                                    spacesh0t - giler best ...

                                                      corkscrew- giler ... berderau drh ....

sn0ww0rld - sejuk giler...

                                               boat lembap - giler nk tnggu kelembapan die ...

b0ating - pergh !!! bengang sehh ...

merry g0 r0und - mcm dax kecik jerk nek bende nie ...

awas !!!

s0rry lpe nk bagitawu ... jam kt bl0g sye x bet0i ... s0 hrp maaf yew >_0

c0ngrat !!!

hehe... akhirnye adeq saye (ella) dh wat p0wn bl0g die ... hahaha... gile rsenye...hahaha...nme bl0g die pinky d0tz hehehe... well ... kte 0rg an d0tz sister ... hahaah...pape p0wn chaiy0k ye adeq ku ... hahah... ngar0t jerk kak nasuha nie .... hahahah dh argh nk mndi ... dh bsk ... hahahaaha.... bye !!! >_0

s0me sad Em0 st0ries - 4 !!!

I dedicate this poem to my friend Lorianne. Its idea came from her and it's really very touchy. It's about an emo girl who discovered her boyfriend having an affair with somebody else. She loved him so much but she can't take the pain, so she killed herself."

 

She is alone in her room
Cold and in pain
Palms clutching a blade
Songs getting to her ears
Tears rolling down her chin
As memories came flashing back

A love so sweet and true
She has treasured for so long

It was his birthday then
Hence, she planned to visit him
She brought him an electric guitar
With initials you and me
The night was young and the waft so calm
It brushed her heart and soul
Hence to greet him in surprise,
She is expecting.

She went to his house with the guitar in her hands,
Hoping he will like her gift
Then she climbed the stairs and went to his room
Though, there she stood surprised.

Two persons lay stripped on his bed
Thus, having some sweet lovemaking
The gentleman she recognized as him
But the woman was a stranger.

She stood like a rock there on her track
As sore tears fall down from her eyes
She dropped her gift with a thud on the floor
And that made them stop.

She ran from his house and went to her house
And there she locked herself in her room.
Her heart was broken and her soul unspoken
As she cry her weeping heart.

To see him on his bed with another girl-
Not her.

The music kept playing her heartbeats empty tune
As she recalled their once happy days
How they used to be perfect like partners in crime,
Spending and enjoying their times as one.
With every moment like unending sensation
They lived their love’s commitment.
But tonight was diverse, it was all diverse
Since she saw his hush-hush treason.

Now she is here alone in her room
With the music playing her heartbeats empty tune
The songs get to her ears,
Her eyes producing tears.

Tonight will be just fine
As she is ready to end her life
No more gloomy and agonizing moments
Will ever come her way

The blade pierced her skin
Like the way he pierced her heart
But its okay since she no longer feels the pain.
Tonight she may die

In pace requiescat. 

s0me sad Em0 st0ries - 3 !!!

3

There was this girl named Heather and she had a messed up life. She was learning things the hard way. For example love, friends, school, and boys. Then she was getting tired of all this SHIT. Then she started to cut. Then Heather started to look around her classroom and saw a guy who had all black clothes on and was wearing chains. Then Heather got the guts and went to talk to this mysterious guy herself. Heathers friends had seen the cuts on her arms and they didn't understand why Heather started to do this. t day was her first day and school and she ignored everyone. 

Then Heather started to look around her classroom and saw a guy who had all black clothes on and was wearing chains. Then Heather got the guts and went to talk to this mysterious guy. Then they started talking and found out that they were both going through the same thing. A week has passed since they met and the guy really liked Heather...so he asked her out and she said yes. They had been dating for 3 months and the guy phoned her. He sounded sad and said that his parents were sending him to rehab and that he was never coming back. She was shocked

She was shaking so hard from her crying. He wanted to see her for the very last time. Heather hung up the phone and ran to his house knowing that this was gonna be the last time that she would see him. They had been talking for 3 hours losing track of time. They had started to pack which took him 2 days and then he was gone. After Heather knew that he had left she cried her eyes out for 5 straight days and she then realized that she couldn't live like that anymore. So Heather planed to cut herself which she did and died instantly.

THE END!!*TEARS*

s0me sad Em0 st0ries - 2 !!!

2

not understood

 

Wow.....
what I said was an understatement.
there really is no
fucking happiness.
because I was happier than
anything before.
then it all faded.
the tiny sliver of happy
that I felt.
its gone.
I was so happy.
then it turned to tears
like it always does.
it turned to hate inside,
and that's what's making
me die a little
every day.
its what makes me sad.
ill of upbeat things.
i cant do this.
being a small child was so much simpler.
when the only thing you had to ever worry about,
was your siblings
stealing your toys.
now.....
you have to worry about the world.
you have everything to
think about.
your life to plan,
and who to please.
there's just no happiness in it all.
in anything at all.
sometimes you make me feel it.
all the pain inside,
you make me know that
its really there and that it hurts.
you make me know that happiness
inst real.
I used to think it was.
but its just like
the super heroes.
Santa clause even
finding out the tooth
fairy isn't real.
its just a thing of the imagination.
if not a hallucination.
happiness is like a drug.
you feel the high that
happiness gives you,
the hallucination part that isn't real,
then when that has went away
the high leaves you feeling down.
so you do real drugs,
so that way you can feel
something real.
the drug.
and not the impersonation.
you do reckless things
just to feel.
just to be heard.
so you are heard,
rather than screaming silent
screams no one can hear.
that way you know you're alive.
you cut to feel the pain.
to see the blood trickle
down your arm,
tickling as it runs.
it brings you actual light in your eyes.
you know its a sign,
of your pain your tears,
your anger and sadness.
but people don't know the code.
you try and send it,
but they don't listen.
they don't see it written in your eyes,
your arm.
they cant understand our apin.
the signs and cries we send out,
never get answered.
so we cant say we don't ask for help.
because we do,
were just not up front about it.
because if they really cared,
they'd look so much deeper,
to see what they would find.
but do they dare?

s0me sad Em0 st0ries

1

An Emo Story

C moved here when I was in 2nd grade. Since his mom was Korean and my mom was Korean, our moms started doing mom things (like going to each others houses and drinking coffee). Meaning my brother and I would get dragged into going to C’s house. C didn’t know much English and we became friends. He was really nice to me and was good at sports too so he taught me how to play baseball and I was more athletic then. 

Then in 4th grade H moved to here from New Jersey. She moved into the same neighborhood as Y and C. Because of that, H started making fun of C and Y would join her sometimes. Then, when I came over to play, H and Y would make fun of C. So C thought I didn’t like him as much as H and Y did.

In 5th grade we never talked. We were completely invisible to each other. And in 6th grade we still didn’t talk much except once or twice when I went to his house for like 5 minutes. In 7th grade I found out I was in 5 classes with C so we kinda talked to each other a little more, but mostly only about homework. Then one day, he broke my heart. I won’t write what he did but the memory is stuck in my head. I became emo for the next couple of weeks.

The first week I just spent most of my time crying and wondering what I did that made this happen. The next week I was angry at him and started hating him and going against him. And even now I still think of him every day and it won’t stop. Sometimes, I feel like I still love him. Sometimes, I feel like I hate myself. Sometimes, I feel like I wish he would drop dead. And most of the time, I want to forgive him.

But I can’t.

I still can’t let him go.

I want to but I can’t.

Extremly Long Emo Stories!!!

You reach into the hat and pull out the #3 and practically scream it out. you hold your breath and see Danny (your bff) stand up. You exhale feeling relieved you weren't stuck with anyone else. He tosses his head back laughing and says ''hey sexy! would you like joining me in the closet?'' ''it would be my pleasure,'' you say inbetween giggles. He leads you in by your waist and smacks your ass. You let out a sexy yelp and return the favor by smacking his ass. ''Baby chill, were not even in the closet yet,'' he says sarcastically and everyone laughs while he locks the door. He turns to you and starts tickling your sides. ''Danny, stop!'' you say laughing hysterically. ''Nope, i don't think so,'' he says tickling you even more. You fall to the floor laughing in pain and he climbs on top of you. You use your hands to push him off but he is too strong. You both wrestle for awhile, Knocking coats and boxes over everywhere. Out of nowhere a box smacks Danny in the head sending his face crashing into yours. His lips press firmly against yours and quickly he lifts his head. ''im so sorry ______, that was an accident!'' he said still laying ontop of you. ''it's ok......it was just an accident,'' you say, trying to put together what just happened. Everything goes silent and he notices he is still ontop of you. ''ohh....sorry....i should get off now,'' he said feeling awkward but he didn't. He stayed hovering above your body. You give him a questioning smile and you feel him getting hard. His cheeks turn a bright shade of pink and he starts picking himself up but you immediately bring him down once again. ''what is happening,'' he says smiling. ''i don't know but....i don't want this to stop,'' you say in a breathless whisper. He looks back at you with intense eyes then grabs your face and passionately kisses you. He starts sucking on your neck while you unbuckle his pants. Still working on your neck, he somehow manages to strip you naked and you do the same for him. He positions himself comfortably on you and starts going in, inch by inch. Teasing you with every stroke. You had enough and screamed his name. He smiled and shoved it all the way. You moan, enjoying every second of it. By the time you both were done you were hot, sweaty, and breathing heavily on his chest. Finally he spoke ''_______, i love you, i always have and....i just wanted you to know that,'' tears formed in your eyes. ''Danny, i love you too,'' you say looking at him. He stares back and places a kiss on the top of your head. Just then i knocked on the door. ''Hey you guys, Times Up!'' you both exchange glances and quickly get dressed. while walking out Danny whispers in your ear ''_______ be my forever,'' you turn, pull him close and whisper back ''forever babe,'' The whole night you both talked, made out, and eventually fell to sleep. After two months of dating you find out that you are pregnant. You get really worried and tell Danny. He's quiet for a moment but then smiles ''wow...we are gonna have a baby,'' he finally said. ''are you sure your ok with this?'' you ask nervously. ''________, im more than happy, im going to be a father,'' he said tearing up. He pulls you close and you both cry in eachothers arms. ''I'll take care of you _______,.....i promise,'' he says while caressing your face. Two weeks later he proposes and starts planning out the future. He keeps telling you that he wants a big house full of children but most of all, he wants you to be happy with him. During the pregnancy, you find that Danny is excited to be a father. He keeps talking about the baby and how he can't wait to hold it in his arms. But unfortunately you have a miscarriage and he cries for months. You both went through many hard times and Danny had a bad case of depression. One day after school you dropped by Danny's house and found him making out with another one of your best friends ''How could you Danny!'' you cry out and run out of the house. ''_______, come back!! it's not what it looks like,'' he tries screaming but you are already gone. A month passes by since the incident and you find out that Danny left you pregnant once again. Your parents kick you out so you go and live with Alex (your ex) for support. You get a call a few days later that Danny was in a bad car wreck for drunk driving and was severely hurt. You and Alex rush to the hospital and you burst into his room. He looked practically dead. You busted out crying and ran to his side while Alex stood beside you. Danny opened his eyes and started to tear at the site of you. ''________, im so sorry i caused you pain but you have to know that i didn't cheat on you! she came unto me! ive been true to you since the beginning,'' he said choking up. ''Danny don't even worry about that now, i just want you to make it out of here,'' you said while stroking his hair. He looked at you and squinted his eyes in pain. ''_______....im not....going....to make it,'' he said inbetween gasps of breaths. You couldn't believe what you were hearing. ''NO Danny! don't talk like that! you'll see, youll be better in no time! then we can get married like we planned,'' he looked back at you with hurt eyes. ''im so sorry baby...i just can't...hold on much longer,'' he said. Your eyes started to burn. ''Danny, you can't go!...you need to live because im pregnant,'' he looked up at you shocked and you continued. ''Your going to be a father Danny, just like you always wanted,'' Tears started raining down his face then he noticed Alex in the background ''No....Alex is,'' he said and passed away. ''Danny?...Danny?...DANNY!!! wake up! don't leave me like this!'' you cried out but it was too late. You spent the whole night crying in Alex's arms. A few months later you gave birth to a handsome baby boy who looked exactly like Danny. Alex helped you raise Danny Jr. and you both got married 2 years later. But not one day passes where you do not think of your true love, Danny...may he rest in peace. awww OMG that is sooo sad! IM CRYING! lol. {copied from myyeabook.com}

nurin ...

hehehe.. tgh sy0k 2 tgk legend 0f stars ... tetibe c0zen aq yg kecik , c0mey , dtg ... hehe..
sukenye ... hehe... um0 die bawu 5 taw0n tpi dh pndai speaking ... hehehe... k lah nk men ngan die jap ...

fuckin'g perfect !!!

Made a wrong turn, once or twice.
Dug my way out, blood and fire.
Bad decisions, that's alright.
Welcome to my silly life.
Mistreated, misplaced, misunderstood.
Miss 'No way, it's all good', it didn't slow me down.
Mistaken, always second guessing, underestimated.
Look, I'm still around.

Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing,
You're fuckin' perfect to me

You're so mean when you talk about yourself; you were wrong.
Change the voices in your head; make them like you instead.
So complicated, look happy, you'll make it
Filled with so much hatred, such a tired game.
It's enough; I've done all I can think of.
Chased down all my demons, I've seen you do the same.

Woah ohh, pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel like you're nothing,
You're fuckin' perfect to me.

The whole world's scared so I swallow the fear.
The only thing I should be drinking is an ice cold beer.
So cool in line, and we try try try, but we try too hard and it's a waste of my time.
Done looking for the critics, cause they're everywhere.
They dont like my jeans; they don't get my hair.
Exchange ourselves, and we do it all the time.
Why do we do that? Why do I do that?

Why do I do that?

Yeah, oh, oh baby, pretty baby
Pretty, pretty please, don't you ever, ever feel
Like you're less than fuckin' perfect.
Pretty,pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothing, you're fuckin' perfect to me, yeahhh.
You're perfect, you're perfect
Ohh pretty, pretty please, if you ever, ever feel
Like you're nothin' you're fuckin' perfect to me.

hahah... ta msl jerk tlz lirik agu nie ... hahaha... nie bkn bl0g untk cari lrk agu yew ... hahaha... mne tawu ad 0rg pk mcm ue .... hahaha ...  0rg sukew gile lagu nie ... s0 0rg ltk argh lagu nie as backgr0und music ....

hahaha ... h0pe u nj0y  hahhahahaa.....   -chewy s0da girls

kesah adeq sye !!! (part three)

asyik cite bnde bur0k jerk ... skung nie 0rg nk cite  psl bende baek die 0rg lak ... hahah... ape yew bnde baek die0rg .... jap yew ... ha !!! 0ke 2 dh dpt ... hahaha... hehe... die0rg  nie cpt kesian kt 0rg ... nk 2 kal0 jmpe 0rg tue n 0rg minx sedkah tr0s minx aq 0r parents pnye duit ... heheh... kadang lyn jerk die0rg nie ... 

s0metime die0rg nie b0le di jadi kan kwn but s0metimes ann0ying !!! hahaha... tpi 0rg agy suke dpt adeq laki berbanding adeq p0mpuan ... hahahaa... sbb adeq p0mpuan nnt sukew minx brg 0rg ... hahahaha.....>_<      s0 smpai sini jerk lah ... haha... bye 2 ...

lukisan adeq ....

kesah adeq saye !!! (part tw0 )

hahah... c0ntinue blk .... die0rg ue bkn jerk sukew tgk cite yg sme hmmm... dh sukew maen lapt0p 0rg !!!
p2 ble 0rg minx die kte ue die pnye lak... hish tenshi0n giler ... p2 0rg rmps die bagitawu m0m 0rg ...
tpi x kne mara p0wn hahahah.... sukew tgk mke die 0rg tenshi0n n bengang .... hahahaha

p/s : kadang 0rg kne mara gak rmps lapt0p dri dax 2 0rg ue ...

kesah adeq sye !!! (part 0ne)

aiy00 !!! ssh t0l ad 2 0rg adeq yg x rety bahase nie lah .... slalu jerk kac0 0rg ... dh lah ske tgk cite yg sme jerk ... ulang .... ulang ... hish tenshi0n t0l ... bukak tv cite ue ...  bukak pc cite ue gak .... mas0k kete p0wn same .... hish tenshi0n giler ... nsb baek k0rg adeq aq ... kal0 x lah ... hish  !!!!

p/s : adeq 0rg ue due-due laki ... s0 spe yg ad adeq yg ann0ying cam die0rg sab0 jerk lah ...

m0rning !!!

haha... dpt gak tid0 smlm ... hahaha... ingt an nk berjage jerk tpi mte dh ngat0k .... ta pe ....
hehehe....  0rg bru tuk0 music hehehe.... backgr0und p0wn 0n de way nk tuk0 ... hehehe

                                                   k lah nk tuk0 backgr0und nie....

aiy00 !!!

gile dh k0l 2 p0wn x ley tid0 agy ... hahaha....

12 :00 a.m

aiy00 !!! nape argh mte nie x nk pjm  !!! isyh .... nk tid0 x leh ... s0 bnde yg b0le d'buat is FACEB00K !!!

hahah.... nk tid0 x leh ... tenshi0n t0l .... hehe...

hrp k0rang sume tid0 ngan nyenyak  ye !!! hehehe.... have a gud dream .... bagi yg x leh tid0 cam 0rg hahaha

x tawu nk tlz apew ... hahahahah ....

mUslim waKe up !!!

                                                  ingt jgn lpe tunaikan ibadah kte pd Allah !!!

kate 2 hikmah lak ...

                                                           c0mel an muke die (kat0n ue) ....
                                                             hahaha... x de keje.....

em0 lagi !!!

                                                                    sukew ... sukew ...

hEre s0me eM0 w0rds again ....

                                                                   hehehehehe...
                                                               n0 suffering yet !!!

eM0 w0rds !!!

                                                          i like this w0rds t00 much ....

stUpid j0kes fR0M me ...

here s0me stupid j0kes fr0m  mE  ya !!!

SAM: Apasal ko marah kat tokey kedai 2 Ringgit tu?
DOL: Sebab dia tipu. Aku beli 3 barang dia mintak 6 ringgit. Kata kedai 2 Ringgit

SAM: Semalam aku nampak hantu!
DOL: Uih! kau terkejut tak?
SAM: Taklah.... hantu tu yang terkejut tengok aku.
DOL: Mana kau tahu?
SAM: Aku tengok muka dia pucat semacam jer....

SAM: Apasal kopi yang kau buat ni rasa masin?
DOL: Gula dah habis!
SAM: Yang kau pergi campur garam apasal?
DOL:Kan aku kata, sebab gula dah habislah
SAM: Aku tengok kau beberapa hari ini "candle light dinner" dengan bini kau, mesti dia suka.
DOL: Dia marahlah. Aku lupa nak bayar bil elektrik, api rumah aku dah kena potong!

kemas barang

hehe... brng yg perlu dibawa - baju
                                            - lapt0p
                                            - camera
                                            - and s0 0n ...
hahaha... di ats adlh list brng yg wajib 0rng bawak .... haha...

tidakkk !!!

mcm mne nie 0rg dh lpe passw0rd bl0g hahaha.... s0 ssh lah nk tlz 2 agy ... hehehe... dh 4 kali 0rg wat bl0g
gile ann ??? hahahhaha.... wateverlah  ... hahaha  ..... x pe ... x pe .... 0rg nk gy h0liday s0 kne eppy d0n't sad hehehe... have a nice day ya !!!
p/s : tak0t nye nk sign 0ut bl0g !!! hahaha

h0liday

All000 !!!  hehehe... skew lak .... nnt 0rg nk gy h0liday hehehe.... tpi cme gy genting hinglands jerk hehehe...
bunyi cam gempak ..... hehehe.... x  sab0 rsenye .... heheheh ..... k lah nk kms 2 brg  babai ... :)